GW1 Reached!

Dayy 10

So I woke up, and I'm 209.6! Yessss! Now I have officially reached GW1 and can try for 205 or maybe even 203 by xmas break - next friday, the 17th. I want it so bad! I can taste it! And luckily, I don't know of any possible binge times until next thursday and by then I already hope to be too close to screw it up.

I've calculated it and if I lose at a steady rate (but when does that acutually happen =)?) of.8 or more each day I could be looking at 203 by next friday. Please Please Please??

Ok, So Here's the Plan For Today:
Breakfast:
Chobani Vanilla Greek Yogurt - 120
6oz Oatmeal - 67
2tsp Brown Sugar - 35
1/2 Cup Watermellon - 20

Lunch:
Nothing

Dinner:
1 Salmon Fillet - 127
Teriyaki Sauce - 30
Apple Slices - 57

Snacks:
Advent Calendar Chocolate - 7
Dreyer's Strawberry Fruit Bars - 80

Total: 486

I bought the popsicles on an impulse shopping trip and I probably shouldn't have but now I've got to eat them before xmas break! damn that's gonna be hard!

Thinspo for the Day

Well, wish me luck! I wish it to you all as well! Go forward and thin down! lol

xxxxxx

~~UPDATE~~
I didn't stick to the plan perfectly today. As you saw I had oatmeal on top of my yogurt this morning but I skipped lunch instead. This was probably the hardest part of my day. I was sitting in my bed and litterally could feel my body pulling me to go and eat. I had to text not.quite.ana to keep me from eating. She told me to shower or sleep. But I knew that if I moved from my bed, left my room, or even go to the bathroom I wouldn't be able to hold myself back. So I lay down in bed and slept. I slept from 4 until 6:15. At one point I woke up and I had the worst hunger pains I've ever experienced but somehow I forced myself back to sleep.

So that was the #1 obstacle of the day. #2 was work tonight. I work at the cashier station in one of school's cafeteria/fast food restaurant called The Cooler. So for 4 1/2 hours I had to hand people hamburgers, BLTs, grilled cheeses, onion rings, fries, etc and when it was time for my 10minute break I ate the salmon and teriyaki I had planned for myself. Then, I got fries and at 22 of them and ate 2 of my friends onion rings. Damn! Well, I still kept my binge under 200 calories and so I ended up at 658 calories today. Not bad I guess but still.

I can't believe on Monday I thought I would never be able to take in so few calories in one day and survive but I am and I'm going to continue to!

Well there's the synopsis of my day.

Stay Strong Lovelies!
xxxx

Day 9

Day 9
I am in such a good mood right now!! I just weighed in this morning and I was 210.4! That means I lost 1.6lbs overnight? Wow! Of course I'm not counting it as reaching GW1 until I'm actually 210 or less - i.e. hopefully tomorrow.

Anyways,

The Plan Today is:
Breakfast:
Chobani Vanilla Greek Yogurt - 120

Lunch:
1/2 Cup Cucumber - 8
1/2 Cup Grape Tomatoes - 16
1 Serving Campbell's Select Harvest Light Southwestern-Style Vegetable Soup - 50

Dinner:
1 Healthy Choice Tortellini Primavera Parmesan Meal - 230

Snacks:
Advent Calendar Chocolate - 7
Strawberry Fruit Leather - If Needed - 50

Total: 481


I feel like today will be good. I'm hoping I can have the same kind of restraint that I had yesterday and not binge and not put myself in situations where I would binge, like agreeing to go to the cafeteria with my friends for "snack time." That just screws me over =)

I'm just one step closer to my UGW. I can do this. I just need to stay on track and not step off no matter how good and tasty something looks!

Thinspo for the day

Stay Strong!

~~UPDATE~~
So today went well until dinner. We dove early and I couldn't get a ride up the hill so I ate in the cafeteria with my friends. Originally I was going to be fine and I ate a BLT and apple slices. Putting me at 515 for the day which wasn't bad. But then I binged and I binged bad. I ate 1/2 of peppermint ice cream and a oatmeal rasin cookie.

Now, I have ended the day at 755 calories! I shouldn't be complaining. That's still one of the better days I've had and I worked out enough today that that'll help. So hopefully I will be looking at a large loss tomorrow!

Fingers Crossed!

I hope everyone else was able to stay strong!

2lbs to GW1!!!

I woke up, went to the bathroom, stepped on the scale and I made it all the way down to 212.0!!! Yea!! I was so excited and worried because I broke my fast last night. But I'm ok because I lost so much! That's like 1.2lbs in one day! I love when hard work pays off.

Well here's the plan for the day:
Breakfast:
1 Chobani Vanilla Greek Yogurt - 120

Lunch:
1/2 Cucumber Slices - 8
1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes - 8
1 Cup Soup (Whatever is in the cafeteria) ~100

Dinner:
3/4 BLT on Wheat Bread - 194

Pre-Diving Snack:
1 Strawberry Fruit Leather - 50

Other Snack:
Advent Calendar Chocolate - 7

Today should be good. I planned out the meals this morning I just hope the soup is good and I don't have to improvise on the spot because that's where I screw up =//

I'm so not looking forward to finals next week! I cannot believe I am almost done with my first semester of college. I have to rock all my finals so that hopefully I can get at least a 2.5-3.0 this semester. Then next year, I promise I will kick butt in all my classes. In all reality, diving's the only thing getting in my way of great grades. But I love it. And honestly, without it, I wouldn't exercise at all really So I gotta stick it out. I bought like a ton of frozen meals and fruit pops so that I can avoid the cafeteria as much as possible! So, I can't wait to start in on those tomorrow. If I like them a lot I'll buy them while I'm home and live off soup, frozen meals, and yogurt for the whole time I'm home =)

How's everyone else doing today? Any big successes? Any binges =(? Loss? Gain? I've experienced it all so don't be embarrassed. You'll get back on track!

~~UPDATE~~
So far so good. The soup they had ended up being Puree of Black Bean Soup which was really good. It ended up having 111 calories which was really good and I had two saltines with it - I know, not planned!

So the total so far today is 272! Wow this is the best its ever been at this time of the day! I also decided not to have the fruit leather because it turns out we didn't actually go to diving today. lame. Thats 200+ calories I didn't get to burn today. So I've decided that for dinner I will have either salmon and apple slices or salmon and rice. If I have the salmon and rice my daily breakdown will be: 19% fat, 39% carbs, 41% protein. Wow that's a lot of protein! With what I have eaten so far and the salmon and rice I should be at 594 calories today. Much better than any day so far.

So we'll see what I decide on. Either way I'm going to try to eat it very slowly and think about what I'm eating. How is everyone else's day going?

Thinspo for the day:

~~UPDATE~~
Ok. It's the last update for the night. Today went very well. Better than I would have thought. I ended up at 493.

Chobani Vanilla Greek Yogurt - 120
1/2 Cup Cucumber - 8
1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes - 8
2 Saltines - 26
1 Cup Black Bean Soup - 111
1 Cup Sliced Apples - 57
1 Salmon Fillet - 127
2 TBSP Teriyaki Sauce - 30
1 Advent Calendar Chocolate - 7
Total: 493

With exercise and BMR, Net Calories = -1,859

I better be lower than 212 tomorrow!

Night and Stay Strong Girls!

Making up For Yesterday

So, I woke up and checked the scale. It said 213.2 which really shouldn't make me too upset as I screwed myself over yesterday. And as I said yesterday, today is a 24-40 hour water and juice fast. I want to make up for yesterday and so I'm hoping for a maximum of 211 tomorrow for my "official" weigh-in.

How's everyone else doing? Are the pounds coming off prior to the xmas and finals rush. I so hope I don't binge like a crazy woman the whole time. Although, last time I was home, I practiced restraint really well so I hope that continues this time I'm home. The two days I know I'll binge on are Christmas and Christmas eve. So I'll have to add two days of really good restricting in too.

I don't really have anything else to say today, unlike my usual posts which are super long! Hope everyone has a good day and stays strong!!!

~~UPDATE~~
In my opinion I isn't give up today. I continued with my plan. And the plan lead me to fit into my GAP jeans I bought at the end of the summer that I hoped to fit into. Well.....they fit me today!!!! Yea!!!! Also, I bought size 16 pants today because the 18s were too big. I'm feeling very good about myself today. The goal is to make it to 205 by next friday! Let's see if I can make it!

Day 6

Hey, Sorry for no post yesterday. It was hectic with my dive meet and everything.

Yesterday was pretty good I believe. A few slip ups but overall very good. However, I spent the night at my birthmother's last night and ended up not having a scale this morning so I had no clue how much I weighed. Then, I did bad today =( That's the most I can tell you without feeling worse than I already do.

The result?

24 hour juice fast tomorrow. This will include at the most 1cup of Trop50 Orange Juice. If possible I'm going to try to continue until Monday around 3:45pm. If so, I will allow myself 1/2cup of Top50 for Monday. I hope I can do this! It would make me feel better. In the spring I completed a 10day Master Cleanse and was proud of myself. However, it was with one of my friends and without her I know I wouldn't have made it. It helps me to have someone/people there being supportive of me.

How's everyone else doing?

I will share with you though the good news that I got before I screwed it up with a binge. I got down to 212.6 (a loss of 2.8lbs) just between Monday and Friday. However, with that binge I probably screwed up all my hard work =( I gotta do it again! I gotta work harder. If I lose a pound a day next week (which my loss last week showed is almost possible) I can be under 210 by finals! I hope so I hope so I hope so!! Maybe the fast tomorrow will help!

Day 4

Hey Guys!

Ok, I'm excited because I did give in yesterday and binged but I sayed about about -750. I was worried I'd only lose like .2 lbs by today. But I got on the scale (3 times to make sure) and I came out at 213.8!!!! A whole other pound gone! So excited!! Anyways I gotta post quickly cause I'm going on a field trip but I just thought I'd fill everyone in.

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I'm embarrassed as to tell you about my day. It was not one of my best. I'm having a hard time and feeling depressed. Tomorrow will be better. It needs to be. I will cry if that scale doesn't go down tomorrow morning. Very sad.

Goodnite.
xxxxx

Day 3

Ok. Here we go. Day 3. So far, I am at 214.8. Which means I'm already down one pound from Monday. I'm very happy about this! =)

Here's my plan for the day:
Lunch:
1 Stoneyfield Raspberry Low-Fat Yogurt - 130
1 Cup Trop50 OJ - 56

Dinner:
1 Salmon Fillet (Grilled) - 127
1 Cup Sliced Apples - 57

Snack:
1 Advent Calendar Chocolate (Yum!) - 7

Ok. So today should be good as long as I stick to it. And with exercise I should end up at about -2,150. Yessss! Let's rock today! I know I can! I know it! I can feel it. I just can't break down and give in.

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I should let you all know that today is the definition of a binge day. My birthmother's in the hospital and I'm under so much stress and pressure. It's rlly hard to deal. I want to do well so bad but I also just wanna drown my feelings in French fries. I hate days like these. Just please everyone don't hate me if I fail today. I can't tell you how happy I'd be to keep my daily intake this low for once and I already did so well since monday, as far as the scale goes. I'm just super stressed.