Starting Over

Let me give you guys the breakdown from last Wednesday to today. One of my friends pissed her roommate off. I don't think that either of them has the right to be mad at the other for whatever reasons they are mad. Anyways, them being mad has led to my friend moving into my room when my roommate isn't here. Which has literally been Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night. So it's come to the fact that I can't weigh myself in the mornings because she's awake, I can't weigh myself before bed because she's here, and I can only weigh in the middle of the day after I've already eaten. I hate this! I'm trapped in my own room. And of course she's one of my two friends that whenever I'm around I can just binge like crazy. She doesn't eat a lot but it's like being with her gives me the right to. So basically I fucked up last week.

So...

I'm starting over. Starting today. I need people to notice me because I'm thin and I need to get to that level. I want it so bad. I now just quickly getup and weigh myself while she's brushing her teeth in the morning. I have to be quick but it worked this morning. I need my life back. I need to restrict.

So far today I have had a diet coke (0), barely any of my stir fry from lunch (~68), 14 french fries (94), couple bites of a chicken wrap (~50), and half an oatmeal cookie (45). Bringing my midday total to 258. Pretty good considering my usual midday total.

Up until May there is no real plan. Just to not eat like a pig and hopefully drop a couple or a few pounds.

I hope all of you are doing well, xx

Thinspo for the Day

I will get what I want and you will be jealous.

Edit: I had a Healthy Choice Steamers Meal for dinner (340) so all in all today I have had 598 calories!