I learned my birthmother is like 287lbs. Please don't let me get up there. I would literally kill myself.
woke up early. breakfast:
chobani strawberry yogurt (140)
whole wheat english muffin (134)
strawberry jelly (50)
blended mocha (180)
apple turnover the first fail of the day (170)
got hungry in class:
1 ounce raw almonds (160)
"could have had the whole order but only ate about 1/4 of the order" shrimp stir fry (46)
salad with carrots, romaine, cucumbers, sunflower seeds, and balsamic (146)
Dinner (aka bingefest):
4 mozzarella sticks (403)
Bacon burger with ketchup, mustard, and mayo (682)
1 small bag Doritos (140)
2 ounces pistaschios (340)
Talk about a day full of eating my feelings. I did it. I totaled 2,554. Can you beat that? I wish someone could so I didn't feel so shitty.
As weird as it sounds (especially to me) I want to be empty. I want to purge all the food I ever eat again and I would if I didn't have to do it in a stall next to someone else. Damn!
I want to fast for weeks and never stop but I don't think I can and I don't know how I did it before.
I haven't wanted to crawl up and bed and cry for awhile but now I want to for the next couple of hours.
I'll let you all know how tomorrow goes....
Thinspo for the Day