Monday, November 29, 2010

Day 1 - Here We Go Again

So, basically today was a failure. I woke up checked the scale and expected between 217 and 220 pounds due to thanksgiving weekend. But no I was 215.8lbs. Which I will admit is better than what I thought I'd see but still not good enough. Secretly I was praying I was still 212. But I know I don't deserve it. Not after this weekend. Well I'm motivated. It's 8:30am and I have hunger pains but I'm going to get through it. I'm not gonna give in. 400-800 calories today!

This is not a good Update. It's a fail. Or more specifically a recap of the worst binge ever. I went to the cafeteria feeling confident that I could control what I ate and wouldn't screw up royally. So.....

I stuffed my face for 30minutes straight. I ate until I didn't want the food anymore and yet I kept shoveling (not an exageration of a word) in tons and tons of food. Here's the breakdown:

1 cup sliced apples - 57
.28oz baby carrots - 13
1 BLT on wheat bread - 258
1 scoop mocha almond fudge ice cream - 105
1 scoop nutella ice cream - 105
1 huge white chocolate chip and macadamian nut cookie - 280

Omg. That is 818 calories in one meal. Damn!!! I hate myself. However, the one thing I know for sure now is that I cannot go to the cafeteria for meals alone. Otherwise I WILL binge. I'm going to finish up today the way I had planned it regardless of how high my calorie intake is in the end. Then tomorrow I will get back in the mindset. It's all about the Thinspo. =) I know that thin HAS to taste better than any BLT, Burger, or any other food. I just haven't tasted thin yet but once I have, I'm sure I will agree with this statement.

Hope the rest of you are staying strong!!!

Well, I'm just wayyyy to embarrassed to post what was my overall calorie intake. However, I did end up at -687 overall so maybe that will count for something. My number 1 plan for tomorrow is to practice cutting everything up and only eating half at the most. That's my challenge cause I must say, that has got to be one of my biggest problems - eating the whole dish. No matter what! eek! At least I ended up at 7 glasses of water, only 2 cups away from my goal.

Here's the plan for tomorrow:
1 Raspberry Low Fat Stoneyfield Yogurt - 130

1 Cup Apple Slices - 57
1/2 PBJ - 189

1 Cup Grape Tomatoes - 32
1 Cup Cucumbers - 16
1 Cup Carrot Strips - 50
1/2 Vegetarian (Wheat Bread, Tomato, Lettuce, Onion) Sandwich - 113

Well goodnight all. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Thanks for the reminder not.quite.ana!


  1. awww don't be so hard on yourself, 800 isn't very bad for a daily total! just remember that there's always a chance to do better tomorrow than today <3

  2. Hey, babe, I just saw your comment on my last post. I honestly can't fast, so I'm just gonna be rotating 200, 400, 600 cals per day. And it's totally doable with working out a lot! I work out a TON, too! Sometimes I spend two hours working out HARD at the gym on only 150 cals!

    And I'm sorry about that binge! It must have felt aweful. But the good thing is that you're now that much stronger. Are you in college staying in rez? In any case, careful of that caf food, hunny!