Day 1 - Here We Go Again

So, basically today was a failure. I woke up checked the scale and expected between 217 and 220 pounds due to thanksgiving weekend. But no I was 215.8lbs. Which I will admit is better than what I thought I'd see but still not good enough. Secretly I was praying I was still 212. But I know I don't deserve it. Not after this weekend. Well I'm motivated. It's 8:30am and I have hunger pains but I'm going to get through it. I'm not gonna give in. 400-800 calories today!

~~UPDATE~~
This is not a good Update. It's a fail. Or more specifically a recap of the worst binge ever. I went to the cafeteria feeling confident that I could control what I ate and wouldn't screw up royally. So.....

I stuffed my face for 30minutes straight. I ate until I didn't want the food anymore and yet I kept shoveling (not an exageration of a word) in tons and tons of food. Here's the breakdown:

1 cup sliced apples - 57
.28oz baby carrots - 13
1 BLT on wheat bread - 258
1 scoop mocha almond fudge ice cream - 105
1 scoop nutella ice cream - 105
1 huge white chocolate chip and macadamian nut cookie - 280

Omg. That is 818 calories in one meal. Damn!!! I hate myself. However, the one thing I know for sure now is that I cannot go to the cafeteria for meals alone. Otherwise I WILL binge. I'm going to finish up today the way I had planned it regardless of how high my calorie intake is in the end. Then tomorrow I will get back in the mindset. It's all about the Thinspo. =) I know that thin HAS to taste better than any BLT, Burger, or any other food. I just haven't tasted thin yet but once I have, I'm sure I will agree with this statement.

Hope the rest of you are staying strong!!!
xxxxxxx

~~UPDATE~~
Well, I'm just wayyyy to embarrassed to post what was my overall calorie intake. However, I did end up at -687 overall so maybe that will count for something. My number 1 plan for tomorrow is to practice cutting everything up and only eating half at the most. That's my challenge cause I must say, that has got to be one of my biggest problems - eating the whole dish. No matter what! eek! At least I ended up at 7 glasses of water, only 2 cups away from my goal.

Here's the plan for tomorrow:
1 Raspberry Low Fat Stoneyfield Yogurt - 130

1 Cup Apple Slices - 57
1/2 PBJ - 189

1 Cup Grape Tomatoes - 32
1 Cup Cucumbers - 16
1 Cup Carrot Strips - 50
1/2 Vegetarian (Wheat Bread, Tomato, Lettuce, Onion) Sandwich - 113

Well goodnight all. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Thanks for the reminder not.quite.ana!